||[Aug. 29th, 2008|02:11 pm]
hmm, figured I should update since things are going well for me at the moment - although if you had talked to me a couple of weeks ago (and definitely still partly- and always)I was a complete mess emotionally, although that is normal after loss.|
I figured I would let people know what I was up to..
So. I got a job for the money necessity thing by waitressing in a British restaurant (Tea and sympathy - love it!) and I am so happy! I work with such lovely people, and the money is good, and it cures my overwhelming homesickness! um cream tea every day bitches? I think so!
on top of that I have been able to keep up the bohemian-I-work-when-can-but-at-least-it-is-still-art-related-lifestyle by doing freelance photography, I'll talk about that more later though!
AND I am TAing for my favourite colour printing teacher, which I feel good about since I am confident in my printing, so I feel confident that I can help - and I will be able to use the lovely SVA facilities without paying those damn astronomical new york colour lab fees!
so yeah, if you had asked me a few weeks ago, I would not have had time to respond since I was flying back to oklahoma city to spend that last few days with my grandpa while he made the conscious decision to stop his kidney dialysis that he needed due to the 4 different types of cancer he had had in the past five years. which I am still torn up about. And I was also upset because although I do not personally believe in an afterlife, I did not want to be remembered in my grandpas' as the granddaughter who worked at virgin megastore (although I give him more credit than that of course - it was a personal failure I was dealing with as well). but luckily on my last day with him I was able to tell him that I was offered a better job (tea and sympathy - peace out Virgin!). When I left for the airport, I thanked him for always being there for me and he told me he would always be there for me. SO yeah, I was a mess.
He died a week later, and due to money and the dire situation of the flight industry I was not able to attend the funeral (which still upsets me - although I do feel for my sister who was able to attend the funeral, but not to see him before he died due to her obligations as an RA/pressure to save money on her tuition at her college).
since he died his house has been emptied and put up for sale, and, of course, it still upsets me that with both of my paternal grandparents gone now, not only have I not been able to hug my father, but I have not been able to return to Oklahoma and the house that we lived in for our first few months in America when we were making the transition. I just want to be with my family but they are so far away. it is really hard living so far from them, but both of parents know that pain.
so anyway, although I am still not over that ordeal, things are looking up. things are going great for my boyfriend as well, and we are getting a cat on SUNDAY! which I am so excited about!
and I truly like my job, and the prospects photography has given me. and I am still managing to spend time with my friends and boyfriend on top of work, so I feel like I am balancing things well. And I am still managing to take photographs! I am so excited to get back into the darkroom!
yeah, so life is ok.